October Reflection

This October, I fell short of a lot of things. I forgot, ignored, rebelled. I closed my eyes tight, unwilling to see any profound good.

This October, I died to a lot of things.  I forgave, apologized, knelt. I opened my eyes wide, accepting the beautiful condemnation.

This October, I hope for a lot of things. I pray: praise, petition. I focus new eyes outward, learning to trust the initial blur

that comes from acquiring God's perspective
on a different level
in a new chapter of life.

This October is different from the others.
I'm more a child
and more an adult
than I've been in a long string of Octobers.